The Sham

The musk from your armpits, the stale breath of toast swirling slightly in your morning-mouth, your black shoes moving hurriedly in a personal familiar stride, you carry all these with you wherever you go. Your ordinary hands and woman's body are placed in the world's rapid waves, as you roam ashamed, covered in a thin sheet of another's skin, akin to a large spandex glove of ghostly epidermis. It's as if the road is eating up the miles from your feet and your eyes are the awkward and lost ellipticals of a nervous breach through life's eggshell womb. And still, you are moving and touching doors...handlebars of trains at 6:00 am...inhaling the sea, that slashes foam across rocks on an uneventful evening...laughing contentedly with a fidgety mouth, all with the dull thud of his body moving phantasmagorical within yours. He moves his hands, when you pick up your 35 rupee glass of iced tea. He squats to piss in the ladies loo with you, as you sit in awkward angles trying not to ruin your shoes.His hair is twined in yours, it's unwashed familiar smell weaved shabbily in the knots. His eyes are stitched into yours. Burnt sealed and nailed tight to your brain. So that they may never escape their prison of sickly-sweet surface tension. You hear the thrilling romanticism of music in the train, in the rickshaw. You see life through the black-blurred corners of an old photograph. You try to see beauty in your world because you want it to be convulsing with the satisfaction of a battle won. You want to stand on the curb and scream and scream and scream in the black and white high-contrast glory of poetic justice that "I am better than you. I will always be better. I always was better and you, you are nothing, you are no where, you will be no one and I am the greatest warrior, conqueror, queen, messiah, hero, pundit, saviour what-have-you-not-ever! And you, are nothing and never will be."


"But the truth" is, he replies, "I am everything because there is no other like me, unlike you....who is like everyone else."

Hey,
Wake up.
You.